I honestly love going to work and doing what I do.Ī few years earlier, I nearly ended my life on multiple occasions, feeling so trapped by my circumstances and past. They rely on me, I do a really good job and I work fucking hard - but it's noticed, seen and appreciated for the first time in my life. After eight months, I've been promoted and now have a team of people behind me. I looked around at a few different options and chose to work for a larger company, to be a smaller cog in the wheel for awhile as I found my feet. By Saturday morning, I was receiving dozens of calls and emails. I submitted by resume with the encouragement of my partner on Friday afternoon. I was skeptical because of the 10 year gap I had in my trade. "At the beginning of the year, I put out my resume and applied to work in my old trade - just to get a feel for what was out there and if there was a possibility of full-time work or maybe a career. Some of it was related to.being too depressed, burnt out and dare I say it, bitter for the circumstances I'd landed myself in." Due to the very insular nature of that place and the lack of opportunities, I languished there for 10 years. I vowed never to work in that industry again and then went and worked in a BWS bottle-shop. "I came from a very small town, worked a trade there that was so nasty it lead me to have massive, ongoing issues with depression. But I can tell you that having a degree behind you isn’t an end all and I'm pretty unhappy even with the degree."ħ. Or maybe you just need to do more research in what career direction you want to take and make the steps to get the qualifications that will get you there. It might be just be a stroke of luck that you find a job that you'll enjoy and grow in. He's made assistant manager in the eight months he’s been there and I cannot be more proud. On another note, my partner was stuck in a rut in retail for years and landed a job in quality assurance and he is absolutely flourishing. It’ll be a long road ahead and being as burnt out as I am, I'm honestly pretty lost. "I'm tossing up between moving into the construction industry or just redoing my career and moving into medicine. I'm too scared to step out of my comfort zone and I have no passion for the job." "I have a Bachelor's Degree backing me, but I don't really see a future for myself in this industry. Even if I'm stuck at a similar level of income for the rest of my life, I'll at least know what to prioritise outside of that or be able to work on getting a job I get more out of."ĥ. I don't know where I'm going, but at least figuring yourself out is a good goal. I'm trying to push for changes in my job to at least reduce burnout and develop new skills. I might be able to turn something into a career there, or just have a more consistent side gig. I'm trying new things with the few passions I've clung on to and just staying open to the possibilities there. I'm not expecting that my bipolar diagnosis and therapy is going to magically fix everything, but it's another piece of the puzzle. Being medicated for ADHD at least helped me not lose the job, which had happened at similar points in the past, and also kept me focused enough to realise this was a pretty cyclical experience. Now, a year and a half later and after grinding on with that same cleaning job all throughout COVID-19, I hit a wall with financial and work stress, physical fatigue, and just insurmountable depression. It turns out I've had ADHD my whole life and after starting medication for that, I was able to work longer shifts and pick up some more responsibilities at work, but definitely still had major barriers. "Last year, because of the COVID-19 supplement, I was finally able to afford to see a psychiatrist. I kind of hit a wall with the amount of hours I worked, had a bunch of health problems I couldn't afford to get diagnosed and didn't really have any career progression opportunities." Then, when I did find work I could sustain, I was still hating it. Then there was three and a half years of being unemployed and struggling to find any work. I had a bunch of casual jobs and tried university, but really struggled with it.
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